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[podling]

So last night I finished the set I was working on. Finally! Though to be fair, it took less time than pretty much any other thing I've done... but still. And if I do say so myself, it looks rather spiffy. Perhaps I'll try to get it together and take pictures sometime soon. I'll need film first. Or for someone to conveniently leave their digital camera lying around. Or maybe I just need tyrus, though he's kind of got... stuff going on.

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On the work front... boredom still reigns supreme. Apparently I have become more efficient, and I now have little to do. Still, it's a job, and it serves my purposes, but I'd be a bit more satisfied with my position if things were busier. Though to be fair, today we had an event that I helped put together, and it came off very well. Bonus points! Though I then got teased by the chef for a reason I won't go into here, though it was all very aboveboard. Weenie chef.

But so also at work... my coworker's on vaca. So I'm supposed to check her voicemail on occasion. So I did. Apparently someone is in the final decision-making stages and wants her to come back in for another interview. Uh yeah. This makes me feel weird. I mean, it's not like she doesn't tell me about these things, but... yeah, weird. Is she actually going to leave? I thought she'd decided against it, but then again, there have been unpleasant times this year and it's not like my plans are all about staying forever...

Also also at work, I've taken to wearing skirt-suits instead of pantsuits because I'm having trouble with sizes. And I know I shouldn't complain about losing weight, but you know, I really just cannot afford all new clothing to replace the stuff I have. Wearing baggy, falling-off clothing doesn't really look that great, no matter how skinny or fat one might be. Luckily I have some skirt-suits that I'd just kind of been avoiding wearing. So now people keep commenting on how good I look in them, and while it's nice in a way, it's just kind of... weird. When someone at work, someone who is most definitely not hitting on you, says that you're beautiful, how are you supposed to react? I mean, if I was all full of myself and thought it was true, there'd be a clear choice, but as there is... there's really not. I generally just say, "Uh, thanks. Yeah." It's not like I think I'm hideous or anything, mind you, I just don't... I don't know. I'm just me!

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[laurasaurora.livejournal.com]

wow, a job where you have to dress up! i wonder what that is like... sometimes i think i'd like that... instead of feeling like dolt when i do have to wear a suit, say, for interviews...

[podling]

It's got good points and bad points. I'm mostly comfortable in everything I own as a result, which is good because of the whole confidence projecting vibe. Before I worked here I was okay with it, but not truly comfortable in business-y stuff. On the other hand, it's hard to find non dry-cleanable stuff, and I have 2 crates full of needs to be dry cleaned stuff in my house. Plus I have to have stuff tailored a lot because I'm short but have a large chest. So the expense is kind of annoying. Though then again on the plus side, my regular clothes don't wear out as fast...

On the whole, I'm glad I have to dress up for work. It's like putting armor on. :)

[laurasaurora.livejournal.com]

i can totally see the armor thing. i like to look decent for work, so the suit thing appeals to me, but i just don't seem to work in places where you need one (especially up here!). and luckily i just need to find petites and not worry with the tailoring. have you tried buying petites but just in different sizes for top and bottom?

[podling]

I'm going to have to now. I mean, my chest is still rather large, but my waist is smaller, so pretty much anything in a set size is going to look odd. But the problem I usually had with petites is just that they assume that petite is one body type. Like someone short is necessarily skinny. Or someone with a large chest obviously has a wider torso. So that can get weird. I'm willing to bet that things that fit my waist are still too long for me. I mean, I'm not *thin*. Still though, I have two gift cards to Macy's, so I was planning on looking through the petite separates there.

[laurasaurora.livejournal.com]

sounds like a good plan with the macy's action... i bet the separates thing might work better.

it's funny how you find that "someone short is necessarily skinny". cause i generally find in department store petites that someone short is old, fat, likes elastic waists, pastels and otherwise has no sense of fashion.

[podling]

Well it really does depend. But then again, I tend to like specific clothing lines. Like I'm a big fan of Alfani (ahem, when I have gift cards especially) and get a lot of suits at either Macy's or Lord & Taylor, and I tend to get a lot of separates from the Limited instead of department stores. Their black pants are so the best. And the department stores near here... they tend to keep that stuff off in different departments. I'm not saying there's not huge gaudy fat people clothes too, but there's enough variety that I can get around that. Okay, I'm rambling... I should go get breakfast...

[laurasaurora.livejournal.com]

that's what's missing here is variety. which is wierd considering the population is relatively younger in alaska and there is the university and military and air force bases. you'd think they'd have more options here. but i needn't be worrying about that anymore! civilization here i come!

[d2leddy.livejournal.com]

Why, you say "thank you".

[podling]

Yeah, but then they're like, "No, really! You look great!" and continue on in that fashion. It's weird.

I was reading some old entries...

[mowglikat]

And I came across this comment of yours...it was appropriate to post it here, I think...

I think I understand what you mean about beauty though, really I do. Lately I've been working out more, being more in touch with my body, and I feel better about myself, not necessarily because of it, but it's all part of the same issue. I like myself more, somehow. And until I acknowledged that maybe, just maybe, maybe I *am* beautiful, there was always a negative thing going on there. Like, yeah, I'm okay, but I'm nothing special, I'm not one of the beautiful people. But I guess I sort of am. And so are you, see?

well...yes...I think you sort of are. So there. ;-)