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The snow is gone, seems like a distant dream of whiteness. So sad. Always forget that it goes away so quickly around here... But then again, it's just like everything else. Change happens. Quickly sometimes. Except that everything else tends not to necessarily melt.

So I spoke to tikimama last night, and was talking about myself (as I do) and it turned out that there are a lot of things about my life that I just never mention here, or just kind of briefly touch on. Some because I'm busy (and who wants to hear someone saying how busy they are? really???) and some because I don't want to be a whiny whiner (Almost said 'shiny whiner' their, which would be funny, but not really make sense, other than in a 'shiny happy people' sort of way). Anyway, I've identified the problems, I know the steps I need to take to fix things, and motion has begun, but that doesn't negate the stressed-out-ness of the now. I'm just very stressed. And tired. So if I'm all snippy, it's not you. Well, it might be you, but it's probably not. nanne was telling me I need to visualize what I want, what I need, and a time frame, then go towards that. And maybe part of my issue is that I'm indecisive. But I do know some things I want, and I'm thinking I'm ready to make the necessary changes.

Something odd from yesterday... I went to a lunch holiday party in the penthouse of the Millenium Hilton at the WTC. 55th floor, quite a view. It left me feeling pretty weird. all in all. I can't really explain why or how. I'm on that corner every day, but actually looking down onto the construction is something else entirely.

Anyway, so the set I've been working on since Thanksgiving is just about done. The show opens tomorrow. And though there are things I would continue working on, things that could be done better, I absolutely adore this set. I did good. Maybe I will bribe someone to take pics. I really should get a digital camera.

Tonight I'm going to DC to visit tanaise's ex-roommate and hang with her for the weekend. I am greatly looking forward to this. It will be fun! Perhaps I should print out directions to her house. Hmmn. Maybe if I'm lucky whilst I'm there I'll find something to give my brother for Christmas while I'm there. We try to get each other cool stuff, but he's just cooler than I am, so it's kind of a struggle. If all else fails, I can always get him some sketchbooks, he always needs those. If only I could find a cool lunchbox. By contrast, I think I'm an easy person to buy things for, I like most things, honestly. And, as I've been told by others, repeatedly, I am materialistic. Don't argue, don't agree, just accept it. Some things about yourself you do just need to accept. So I'm more like Kermit with a cd collection (my muppet archetype, heh).

In other news, the 5th copy of the 'Dance Monkey Dance!!!' was give out yesterday. And the extended monkey mix is also available, though that's more a work in progress. Oh, and most people will hate it. It helps me paint though, the basic requirement for the mix is the tempo.

And next weekend I will have houseguests! It's kind of odd, I've been less social lately, and haven't really had too many people over. So this will be fun, different, and holiday-cheer making. :)

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[fievel1.livejournal.com]

We still need to come over and watch the Hulk before you return it to your family.

[tikimama.livejournal.com]

Part of my problem in chasing happieness is that I'm ridiculously flexible in what makes me happy. I don't really have One True Thing that I am in seach of (say, a house in Beverly Hills), so it makes a little harder to decide what steps to take to get there. Since I'd be happy with a house in any number of places. I know you're like this, too.

So the difficulty is figuring out how to pursue what you want in a general way. The good news is it will be easier to get, since you have a broad range of things that you want.

I'm not being very clear, hope you get it. Kisses!